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“the world’s like a science and i’m like a secret”

April 27, 2010

...must have gotten lost on my way here.

I have been trying, with limited success, to put my life in order. That seems to mean that i don’t have the mental energy to keep up with writing – or reading, though i have not dropped the ball as entirely on that.

I think the change in Jamie’s schedule – which has been really lovely – has had a broader effect that i cannot entirely pinpoint. Upending my schedule (by proxy) feels like it has revealed a number of things that i think are not working the way i want them to in life in general. Only, it hasn’t revealed them enough to figure out what is problematic or how to fix it. I am left feeling a little bit like everything is lovely and discomforting at once.

Mostly, my brain has been on hiatus. So i haven’t been ruminating or, really, stringing sentences together very well.

Oh, and i’ve been sleeping like 10 hours every night. Which is creepy, and seems to have no positive effect on my mornings or days (but it’s a hell of an improvement over not sleeping properly, so don’t take that as complaining).

Lady Brett

"Lingering Still" - She & Him
3 Comments leave one →
  1. April 29, 2010 11:25 am

    I can imagine that change being overwhelming — even if it’s a good change. I really relate to the feeling of *something* being a bit off, but not being able to put a finger on *what*. I’m gearing up for that happening when I move next month.

    I’m glad you re-surfaced, even if just briefly!

    Also, 10 hours of sleep? Insanely jealous.

  2. May 6, 2010 10:31 am

    My dear Lady B, I think it must be the gay fatigue. I hear it’s contagious. ;)

    “I have been trying, with limited success, to put my life in order.”

    Impressive! I’m much less ambitious; I’ve simply been trying, with limited success, to stay a step ahead of the mess.

    xo
    SF

  3. May 7, 2010 11:13 am

    ah! that must be it!

    well, the mess had gotten completely hopeless, so i thought i might as well try something more feasible.

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