“the world’s like a science and i’m like a secret”
I have been trying, with limited success, to put my life in order. That seems to mean that i don’t have the mental energy to keep up with writing – or reading, though i have not dropped the ball as entirely on that.
I think the change in Jamie’s schedule – which has been really lovely – has had a broader effect that i cannot entirely pinpoint. Upending my schedule (by proxy) feels like it has revealed a number of things that i think are not working the way i want them to in life in general. Only, it hasn’t revealed them enough to figure out what is problematic or how to fix it. I am left feeling a little bit like everything is lovely and discomforting at once.
Mostly, my brain has been on hiatus. So i haven’t been ruminating or, really, stringing sentences together very well.
Oh, and i’ve been sleeping like 10 hours every night. Which is creepy, and seems to have no positive effect on my mornings or days (but it’s a hell of an improvement over not sleeping properly, so don’t take that as complaining).
"Lingering Still" - She & Him